Mommy misses you Kai.
There are no words to describe how much I miss you. I have this big part in my heart that feels so empty without you. There are so many wishes I've whispered in the dark, wanting you back alive and well. But I know they will never come true.
You're gone. And that's the reality I have to face every day. This new life I'm living right now is difficult. At times, I struggle to find small joys and be at peace. My grief for you is so heavy and unbearable. Nothing seems sure anymore.
But I want you to know that Mommy is thankful to have had you. We may have spent only nine months together, but those times are precious to me. We've spent every second of those days in tandem and I will remember them fondly. Fiercely. Until the day I die.
I will always be your mother. You will always be my beloved son. This fact will never change. I regret that we didn't get a chance to be together in this lifetime. But I'm sure we'll find each other again in another.
I love you so very dearly. My sweet, precious child.
1 comments:
What a beautiful post to your Kai. I too have thought often about all the what could have beens, it's still so hard to grasp this is now our reality & not some awful dream we're stuck in. I still reach down to feel my pregnant stomach at times & am hit with the reality of what is no longer. Glad you got out this weekend and enjoyed some time at the beach, the pictures are beautiful!
Thinking of you, sending love & prayers!
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